1. 6 cups broccoli florets
2. 6 cups cauliflowerets
3. 2 cups cherry tomatoes, halved
4. 1 large red onion, sliced
5. 1 (6 ounce) can pitted ripe olives, drained, sliced
6. 1 (1 ounce) package ranch salad dressing mix
7. 2/3 cup vegetable oil
8. 1/4 cup vinegar

In a large bowl, toss the broccoli, cauliflower, tomatoes, onion and olives. In a jar with a tight-fitting lid, combine dressing mix, oil and vinegar; shake well. Pour over salad and toss. Refrigerate for at least 3 hours.

Thanks to

http://food.yahoo.com/recipes/taste-of-home/114771/colorful-vegetable-salad

I thought I was in a movie.... you are my leading man and I am your girl. Turns out that we're not. And....

There's NO Happy Ending after all!

Life is no fairy tale where every lady has her prince charming. There may be a witch who hinders thy love but a kiss seals a love that conquers all.

Maybe I was too assertive about my feelings when I wrote the Main Purpose. I never even realized that I still don't know the person I thought I was inlove with. Still inlove, but now with doubts.

Who is MR. LEFT?

Is he coward, timid to express his emotions? Afraid to be rejected? Or he is so proud to admit it? Does he really care about his peers' feelings or he's just a careless soul wandering and making fool in this world?

Is he in bitterness from a love that was lost several months ago? Is he trying to get back the heart that he owns? Is love never begone?

Is he in loneliness for the betrayal of destiny that brought him in so much pain.

I am wishing to mend a heart, but all is not possible unless answers has been given.

Why am I here?            To work

Why am I still here?      Because I'm inlove

To whom?                     To some guy I met somewhere in the office

I left my hometown with a heavy heart. I promised myself never to fall again and get hurt. I completely decided to focus on creating money and not to look for honey. But as a hopeless romantic I am, again I was fooled by my own heart. Fell inlove with someone I knew for a month. Someone who never crossed in any of my dreams, never a candidate, never the right guy.

He is MR. LEFT.

Always on the left side of everything. Always not in the perfect time, not in the perfect place, not in the perfect world. He was never right for me in any aspect, in any level, in everything.

(slap me in the face)

Am I in denial? He's the best among those who mistakenly walked in my front yard. He has a job, he has a good sense of humor, he's smart (but not as smart as ABIN), he's not so good looking but has the looks  that would make some girls turn their heads (left to right 3x, then say tsk tsk tsk). He walks funny but stands perfectly fine. Not so the gentleman type of guy but somehow knows how to respect a woman. He's just the perfect man that I can be proud of. But he stands on left side of my life. And still... he makes me smile.

I have few days left. To tell him how I really feel or to let it go and forget everything happened in the past two weeks.

"Mas lalo ko napatunayan na dapat nko maggiveup. sayang kung kailan mahal ko na cya"

Do you still remeber the day you said you hate this song but loved the lyrics? This is what we are....

‘Di mo lang alam
Naiiisip kita
Baka sakali lang maisip mo ako
‘Di mo lang alam
Hanggang sa gabi inaasam makita kang muli

Nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang pahanon
At ngayon ako ay iyong iniwan
Luhaan, sugatan, ‘di mapakinabangan
Sana nagtanong ka lang
Kung ‘di mo lang alam
Sana’y nagtanong ka lang
Kung ‘di mo lang alam

Ako’y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Hindi mo lang alam
Kay tagal na panahon
Ako’y nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon para sa’yo

Lumipas mga araw na ubod ng saya
‘Di pa rin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta
Kung ako’y nagkasala patawad na sana
Puso kong pagal ngayon lang nagmahal

‘Di mo lang alam
Ako’y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Puro s’ya na lang
Sana’y ako naman
‘Di mo lang alam
Ika’y minamasdan
Sana’y iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam

‘Di mo lang alam
Kahit tayo’y magkaibigan lang
Napapaligaya lang sa tuwing nagkukulitan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Ako’y nandito lang
Hindi mo lang alam
Matalino ka naman

Kung ikaw at ako
Ay tunay na bigo sa laro na ito
Ay dapat bang sumuko
Sana hindi ka lang pala aking nakilala
Kung alam ko lang ako’y masasaktan ng ganito
Sana’y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko

‘Di mo lang alam
Ako’y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Puro s’ya na lang
Sana’y ako naman
Isang kindat man lang
‘Di mo lang alam
O, ika’y minamasdan
Sana iyo’y mamalayang di mo lang pala alam
Oooooooo

Malas mo
Ikaw ang natipuhan ko
Di mo lang alam
Ako’y iyong nasaktan

San ka na Al?

Are you still going to keep your promise?

I can't deny that even I'm now in the process of moving on.... This song is the perfect feeling I have for you since the day I fell inlove with you.

Di ko man maamin
Ikaw ay mahalaga sa akin
Di ko man maisip
Sa pagtulog ikaw ang panaginip
Malabo man ang aking pag-iisip
Sana'y pakinggan mo ang sigaw nitong damdamin

[chorus]
Ako'y alipin mo kahit hindi batid
Aaminin ko minsan ako'y manhid
Sana ay iyong naririnig
Sayong yakap ako'y nasasabik

Ayoko sa iba
Sayo ako ay hindi magsasawa
Ano man ang iyong sabihin
Umasa ka ito ay diringgin
Madalas man na parang aso't pusa
Giliw sa piling mo ako ay masaya

[repeat chorus]

[coda]
Pilit mang abutin ang mga tala
Basta't sa akin wag kang mawawala

Ako'y alipin mo kahit hindi batid
Aaminin ko minsan ako'y manhid
Sana ay iyong naririnig
Sayong yakap ako'y nasasabik

Pagkat ikaw lang ang nais makatabi
Malamig man o mainit ang gabi
Nais ko sana iparating na ikaw lamang
Ang siyang aking iibigin

Oki. iiklian ko na lang. but first, bibigyan kita ng def of terms para d k maguluhan. Hehe

Tang - ex-crush (ka-barkada)
Budz - the subject
Ponch - the gf

Here it goes. First ko naging love si Tang, (crush = admiration w/o feelings). 7 months nagtagal un, and si Budz ang naging shoulder to cry on ko. He's a good listener kasi. But, on the 7th month, I just realized that Budz is the one I really love. The way he makes me smile and forget my problems, how I almost get an accident just to save his Starbucks coffee, ung date namin sa Mcdo with Tang. So, before I left for US, inamin ko sa kanya, he asked too many questions p nga and he didn't believe na totoo ung sinabi ko. When I got back from US, nagka-sort-of-bf ako, si TIYANAK, pero I turned him down kasi I really love Budz. He also asked me what happened to TIYANAK and I told him the truth. Tuwang tuwa nga sya nun, and he even said, kung sino man ung nagbreak ng heart mo, tanga talaga(pertaining to himself.. ata).Budz and I became so close, hinahatid ko sya sa house (disabled nga d b), magkasama kami sa mga errands ng group, we go out just to eat (I don't consider that as a date, coz it's after work naman). I love him so much, but trying to convince myself na wag umasa. My friends asked him why can't it just be the 2 of us, ang sabi nya, kung wala syang gf, baka kami na. I don't want to believe that, kasi, nakakaloko d b. If he really loves me, he should choose na eh. Ayaw daw nya makasakit ng mabait (so ako salbahe?) Naging sila ni Ponch between June to August last year. Nobody knows talaga when. Pero Ponch really exist. Nung bday ko,nabasa ko sa celfone nya na nag-ask sya kay Ponch na "Happy ka ba na ako ang naging bf mo?" Weird talaga, retarded kasi tong si Budz eh. Anyway, mula nung January, sinimulan ko na umiwas. I started tanggalin ung 3-hrs every day na usap namin sa fone, hangang mawala n ung text, hanggang magtago ako sa graveyard shift and hindi na ako pumupunta sa room nila. We used to be really close. Minsan iniisip ko mahal din nya ko, pero ayoko umasa, sabi rin ng barkada na baka nga, kasi nakikita nila kung paano kami maapektuhan pag may nag-aaway kami. And now, it's 11 months na. Hindi ko pa rin alam ang status namin. I feel na-take for granted nko. Masyado na syang naging kampante kasi alam nya na and2 lang ako naghihintay. Pero it's unfair na for me. So, e2 ako, trying to move on.

What I like about Budz, he's smart. Pag kausap ko sya, hindi ako nagprepretend na matalino ako or bobo ako. Just me. Hindi ako nagpapakaplastic. And that makes me reject the other guys na nalink sa akin.

About the mani, adobong mani ata un. nalimutan nya kasi ibigay sa sister nya last week. Alam nya kasi na d ko kayang magalit sa kanya, kaya iniisip nya na isang text lang nya bibigay ako. I'm so tired na kasi. Pero it doesn't mean na hindi ko na sya love. Right now, I just want to expose myself and explore what this world has to give.

Corny ba? Grabe, embarassing! Ang haba kasi. Trimmed na nga kasi marami pang details yan. :)

Thanks coz you never get tired of me.

I'm getting confused now... Hallucinating, being crazy. Pa-sat!

A little girl is wandering around a dark forest. Searching for apple trees that only those who weren't born yet knows that it exist. A very certain fruit that needs to be picked and be eaten by her twin.

Walking for 3 months with only pieces of bread to satisfy her growling stomach and nothing will be left if she keep on walking for another month. Crying in vain, the little girl bumped into a thomping leafless tree. The tree heard no excuses from the girl and gave her a punishment to get deaf.

Now, being starved, the girl continued walking and again accidentally stepped on a witch's poison plant. The witch, being cruel wishes to punish the girl. But, the girl plead and explained that she is just starving. The witch thought for a while and made a deal that if the girl give her wonderful voice then she will give her food so that she won't get weak and stepped on someone's plants. Being weak, the girl agreed and in a zapped of he witch's wand she lost her voice.

The girl ate so much food and slept. She woke up in the far end of the forest with so a group of wild animals having a feast as site. The head lioness having a weak eye wishes to eat the girl for the feast. The girl pleaded, with no voice coming in her mouth. Having beutiful eyes, the lioness wishes to have it in return of her hearing and voice. The other animals shouted that she won't be able to find the apple trees. The girl pleaded at first then said, "I have seen so many good things in my life. I know without my sight I can still find what I'm looking for. What is my twin's beautiful voice if I won't be able to hear it and sing with her." The lioness, being so excited zapped her paws to the girl and suddenly everything seems so bright and the lioness and the other animals became the apple trees. In the middle of the trees stood her twin.

So confused, the girl asked her twin how she got in the forest. The twin said, "I am you all along. Loving me and doing all those things for me leads you to love yourself and appreciate yourself."

With that, the twin vanished and the girl was lead back to her home.

--

Maybe confusing myself is a bad idea after all. Bah!